Lately I’ve been thinking, I’m trying to figure out
What my life is missing, what am I without?
Sometimes I feel so lonely, I’m sad and out of place
I’m searching for my smile, but it’s missing from my face.
Please just don’t come near me, I can’t bear human touch
The thought of even hugging scares me very much.
I know you all forget me, as soon as you go home
And that’s the way I want it, I like to be alone.
I’m s scared of Monday morning, when I go to school
Because always in my head I hear thoughts of ridicule
And all I want to do, Is be alone and cry
Instead I live in fear, well id rather fucking die.
I don’t want your pity, I don’t want fake smiles
Although I wish I was, I’m no longer in denial.
And all I want now is just to see myself bleed.
It makes me feel so much better, I know it’s what I need.
The distraction on my body dulls my aching head
It keeps me alive, though my soul’s already dead
And no one understands this voice inside my brain
That tells me that I’m nothing, over and over again.