sitting in the back seat
of a police station car
listening to the sirens blaring
in front of a framilar old bar
I hear my mother screaming
and crying through out the night
I saw every single thing
that started the horrible fight
I'm looking all around me
but not one thing can I find
but the gun that was pulled on me
that i'm trying to erase from my mind
the cops are trying to comfort me
telling me everything will be ok
but I can't help but to cry
and wish it were another day
they tell me my grandfather will be here shortly
the man that I hardly knew
the man that never hugged me
he was a stranger and I was too
he came and picked me up
told me to wipe my eyes
said that i should be a soldier
and that I shouldn't ever cry
he told me tears were a sign of weakness
and I have to stay strong
and even though i've had a rough life
there was probally worst to come
he told me to never depend on others
I can only trust me
do everything on your own
thats the only way to be
your mother is a screw up
and your father is gone
and so you have to make the best out of your life
other wise they will try to bring you down
look forward to tomorrow
and remember every day is a new day
as long as you stay true to yourself
everything will turn up ok
and so from that day forth
I never shed a tear
nor asked anything from anyone
and nothing did I fear
I never got close to people
and took care of myself at 13
lived life to the fullest
and never got mad over petty things
and even though he was hardly a grandfather
i'll still remember that day
and the words that he had spoken to me
that changed me in every way