Only A Star

I wanted to be a star
I wanted to hang above the heavens
And shine brightly
I wanted to float in that black timeless space
And listen to stories told by other stars
I wanted to gaze down on people
As they gaze up on me
And be above their earthly problems
(My earthly problems)
I wanted to light the way
IN the night sky
Guiding a lonely traveller
Helping him find his way
(Helping myself to find my way
Because I have no light in my night sky)
I wanted to stand out in darkness
People pointing and saying "wow"
I wanted to be a star...
I wanted to watch other stars fall gracefully around me
And not feel sorry
I wanted to be placed above God and his kingdom
But have no power to control
I wanted to feel of some importance
(Important to myself)
Dying for a purpose is better than just living
(Living 'cause there's nothing better to do)
I wanted...
To not hear the yelling
The exhausted sighs, tired fighting
To not see the mean looks
Rolling eyes, angry faces
To not feel the depression
The hoplessness, need to cry
I wanted to be a star
Be above it all