I Do Not...
By Anaelle
I wake up restless
My body stiff from painful sleep
Thoughts of him drift into my mind
My open eyes stare straight
But is blind to what I see
I do not sleep
I do not rest
He tells me to follow my heart
I wander around lost
My ears strain to hear the truth
But hear too many things at once
The air lies still around me
I do not listen
I do not believe
My breath comes in short rasps
When he touches me deep inside
But still he lives miles away
The love he gives is true enough
But I rarely notice it's even there
I do not feel
I do not care
My heart is weak and cold
It beats strong, but not strong enough
To fix it would be too hard
To leave it would be too easy
But I leave it and do nothing
I do not love
I do not cry
I sit straight in the dark
My hands are shaking
My breathing is hard
My eyes search for him
My ears listen for a sign
I do not sleep
I do not rest
Comments on "I Do Not..."
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A former member wrote:
great description of what so many of us are unable to deal with.
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On Monday, May 5, 2003, TropicalSnowstorm
(1703) wrote:
Interesting piece! You beautifully convey your pain and restlessness very effectively. Always love stopping by to read your work. Ciao, T/S