What do I want,
I can’t seem to understand myself,
And it scares me..
Why must I take part in such passion?
I am in love..
Or am I?
I must love him..
For he is the one I crave to be with..
And yet he is so far away..
And I take part in flesh passions
With men I care nothing for..
Why do I do this?
I need to get my head strait,
And know just what I am..
I know that if I was in his arms,
I would think nothing of any one else..
That I would be his and give him all of me..
Yes this is who I am..
And this is what I want..
I want him…
I want to be with him..
Tell me..is it wrong
To want to be held,
To just see if I am still alive?
I just don’t know any more….
I love him..
I do I know I do
Gods I need to be with him
Befor I do something I fully regret…