This darkness seems to drown my light 
No spark in my sprit and I’m out of fight 

At this point in life I’d welcome death 
Without my heart there’s nothing left 

Filled with anger and hate DEEP in my core 
But I was raised better love compassion
Feels like I’m  battling in a spiritual war 

Im don’t have the push to survive.
but then I remember my mom and her need me  and alive 

So for now I’ll Borrow what strength I can.
Why did I deserve this life what was my mortal sin 

And for all those who say time will heal 
I kindly say screw you let me rip your heart out to see how it feels 

And want to know the craziest part 
this pain won’t get better it’s only about to start