Indulging in Emotions

By Cattarax

How do you make promises
When they are meant to be broken 


*sigh*
 
The lyrical madness that plays in my mind 
Searching for words to describe you in completion
Is symphonic

I fail, like so many times before 

Cliches adorned with love 
Are a pale comparison 

Because it is not exactly love 

Not exactly lust 

Need & Desire 
Are so much more complex

 A simple soft spoken phone call 
Is divine to the grotesque 
Like forehead kisses to the detached
A simple promise...
"I wont indulge in emotions..."
 
 
When I am lost in feeling
... Is unfair...
Though, I am lacking 
Adequate words 
To dress you lavishly with 
Something deeper then real 

More than true

When you hear my name...
Do you think silently, she is mine...
Secrets atrophy love...

Or so I used to think...
The silence in unannounced titles
Could be the answer to forevers question

Love isn't sufficient

For what I seek from you
Cant only be found 
Inside such a simplistic word
I need...
A no matter what ...
When my head torpedoes through tornadoes
A shard collector 
For when I detonate the self destructor 

I need... 
Trust & Loyalty 
I have quelled my demons
To the point only I can hear them whisper...
Unfortunately at times I lack the correct translation 

Need an on call confessional 
Trusted enough to endure its penance 

 


Secrets only atrophy love 
When held between lovers

 
I desire... 
To be the last lips you taste
An ear whisper.ed fairytale 
Of 
Devotion & Dedication 

I desire...
All the tomorrows...
To be without question or doubt 
If we will always be us

 I desire...
A communication beyond words
As finding the correct ones
Is enticingly volatile



But you said...
I'll have you now...
& of course again
Till I don't 

Then I'll let you know



It's been a long time...
Since I thought someone irreplaceable...
I could never go back to just friends...
 

























I hope this doesn't hurt....

 
 
 



 
 

 

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Copyright 2021 Cattarax
Published on Tuesday, January 19, 2021.     Filed under: "Poetry"
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  • Zeppy94 On Thursday, April 29, 2021, Zeppy94 (30)By person wrote:

    Love is a twisted thing ,i think who ever said it was better to love and lose then never to love at all. Was a brainless box of rocks. It can be the most pure beautiful demented twisted darkest force all in the same breath. I found 2 thing that are universal one the best kinds of love Ive had where ones that fell into my lap when i wasn't looking . The 2nd what ever traits i want in my partner i must 1st develop and have those same traits. As always I love reading ur work . I enjoy how i can feel the diffident emotions that seem to radiate from the very words youve written so ty keep writing

  • I IS ME On Sunday, January 24, 2021, I IS ME (475)By person wrote:

    You can't undo the done, tight work Lady


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