Reality check

Sometimes when things turn to shit
it's ok to relax and laugh about it
but I seem to have laughed so damn long I
became the joke itself

and all the times I felt the strain
and found myself immersed in pain
my way is different but still wrong
cuz then I just destroy myself

Now it's - about time
to open - my eyes
stop to - realise

I can't keep living my life this way!

I control my own fate
so re-evaluate
decisions that I make

And I'm going to start today

because I've let my feelings
overwhelm and take control
that life style is a gamble
I don't bet on going well

I go to far the wrong way
then instead of toning down
I go too far back the other
why not aim for middle ground

I'm not the only one
Yes- it's all been done
I know it wasn't fun

For the others that felt this way

and I won't justify
living out that lie
or laying down to die

Won't watch the light inside me fade

or hear out any rot
don't need to find a god
to know I lost the plot

I can fix some mistakes I've made

and the ones I can't
I'll leave them in the past
make another start

With a clear mind I can say

some lessons were worth learing
some things better left to be
you must choose your own direction
stick with it consistently

and realise life's a process
nothing is born fully grown
with time all things develop
so in this fact you're not alone