finally forgotten
you call to me
one long unrelenting memory
the freeform fathomless pitfall of propriety
false society
the egotistical epitome
of angst
anger
and idiocy
you failed in me
for hope once found safe harbor in your eyes
but broken glances
ever long
left me adrift in violent seas
this part of me
left burning in your wake
and you
my great mistake
can only glorify my misfortune
so i walk cautiously
yet missteps overcome
and i fall to find the worlds embrace
now colder than i remember
and its words
far less meaningful
fed up with her failed attempts at consolement
"It'll be ok" "get up" "I've got you"
my response
"No it wont" "I cant" and "Fuck you"
my eyes grow callous
spirit frail
I've spent so long trying to reassemble the pieces
I've forgotten what their for
and i
I'm tired of trying
of writing
of reciting
so i sit
i stay
find comfort in my youth
focus blindly on here and now
tear the page and start anew

again

and hope to god that this time

this time
i can get it right.