I feel sick to my stomach
I'm unsure
doing all i can to make her happy
its been so long since I've had this, since I've felt this
since i needed this.
and she pushes me away
she fights me at every turn
she hates me and yet she doesn't want me to leave
she wants me to break her
to find her
to love her
This role she plays
this life she tries to lead
and she finds me
and she hopes
and she fears
but i am innocent in her eyes
unobtainable
another user
and yet in my heart i don't know if i can lose her
she's never been with a guy like me
a romantic
far from the schoolyard punks that once shared her bed
but in her head she is unworthy
failing to understand exactly what she means to me
that she's a part of me

and its in this way


we'll never truly be together.