Unknown Suicide

 I know I did this
To myself, over time
Being so young
I did not understand
The severe consequences
Of my stupid cravings.
I had it everyday
It was every where
All around me
My home was overflowing
With the candy of death.
I used it to smother feelings
Feelings of self loathing
Feelings of abandonment
Feelings of betrayal
Growing up I hadn't a clue
That this would manifest
And drown me like in a pool
My drug of choice
Is not illegal
It is not forbidden
It is not hidden
In fact it is celebrated
World wide,with pride
And those who do not have it
Perish, so I chose wise
I  thought I was fine......
As I write this and cry
My heart is giving out
I had no idea I could die
My heart is now dying
Under the pressure of
Nourishment and smiles