To Grandma

I was weak and you held me close
I was a disgrace and you took me home
You loved me until I could stand
You took me into your loving hands

You parented me when my parents couldn't
You loved me when they wouldn't
No matter what I seemed to do
I could do no wrong in the eyes of you

But then Grandpa died and you changed
Your eyes were different, deranged
You still loved me and held me so
I thought it was okay and you would know

I was hurting when you turned a blind eye
To your son who made me want to die
Because he made me his slave of sex
Yet you made me always be the best

I cried when you told me Bobby died
My brother and your son made us cry
Together but again you changed
After that you were never the same

You hit me and your once loving hand
Became that of a monsterous tyrant
You slapped me, spit in my face
And made me feel like a disgrace

Now I know that we are far apart
But you will always be in my heart
Though you scare me all night through
I want you to know I still love you.