Hoping for an end

Confusion, pain, torture
when will it end
cant think
cant feel
cant live
thinking of past days
thought it was over
yet close my eyes
it floods back
thoughts
feelings
living life
Happiness, joy, love
it's all ended
what happens now
I numb the pain
poison my body
die a slow death
find all the answers
at the bottom of my bottle


***wow, guess i'm having major pms*****