Insomnia

Please, please...
leave me alone.
Get OUT of my head
I'll tear my eyes out if it means
it'll stop this silent horror movie set on
eternal repeat.
I love you
I hate you
If you were dead, maybe this would be easier for me
(if you were dead, I'd be too)
PLEASE, just let me sleep
Stop looking at me like that
Enigma
(where are you? I need you)
Why? It's not supposed to hurt like this
maybe if I cut out my heart the pain --
but wait, you already did that.
took most of it, anyway.
I'll get my revenge, someday,
keep you awake forever-silent torture of memories.
Please come back
this mask is such a painful burden.
(dead-star dragon curled around what's left of my heart)
Please, please...
just let me sleep
and don't follow me into my dreams.
I despise you, my love.
Goodnight.

8/10/07
3:00 am