AcceptingThe Truth

By The Shattered Heart

Most don’t understand me.
Some would think, I’m a fake
Well, I’m here to say,
That I am who I am
Because I accept the truth,
Yeah,
It might be rather strange
I can’t help it,
That I am weak
When it came to cutting
I didn’t think it was a fad
To me,
It was a way of escaping
Enjoying the pain,
The knife going from one end of the arm,
Cutting across to the other,
The blood running down the arm,
The enjoyment of it all

I do admit,
That I could think better of myself
Think myself to be stronger,
But why not just face the truth
If I didn’t accept it,
Who would I be
What kind of person would I be
If you think I’m weak
I don’t care
I don’t want your pity
Your sympathy
All I’ve ever wanted
Is help
Is advice
If you were me,
Would you lie to yourself,
Telling yourself that you’re stronger
Than what you are
If you were me
Would you try
To be something you’re not

I am who I am,
Because I choose to be
I choose to accept the truth,
That I have problems
Yeah,
I am weak,
I am a recovering cutter,
Not because I want to be
Because I know it’s better
I love cutting
Not because it is fad
But because of the thrill
But I quit,
Because I know it’s not healthy
You say I’m weak,
Like it’s a bad thing
You say I deserve to be an alcoholic
Because I tell you I’m weak
So what.
At least I can come to terms
With the problem at hand
Yes,
I want help,
Yes I want advice
But don’t took down upon me,
Because I can accept the truth

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© 2007 Tears of Confusion
Published on Saturday, February 24, 2007.     Filed under: "Personal" and "Poetry"
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  • A former member wrote: Beautiful, I love it

  • A former member wrote: I too am a former cutter. I too am weak. It gets really hard sometimes to keep from resorting to my old security blanket, my lullaby, my comfort zone, my lover's arms. I know that in those moments i am craving the rush of cutting, if i can just make it thru those intense moments, the need will pass. I used to think crying was a sign of weakness but sometimes, thats all you can do... That, and scream into a pillow...I am lucky to have a couple of really good friends i can turn to with anything and know that my secrets are safe no matter the cost, and that in itself is a great comfort and help in my distressing moments. Great write!

  • A former member wrote: i can relate with you on this a great deal. many ppl dont understand but its nice seein ppl here who express it and admidt that do..

  • A former member wrote: A former cutter myself, I can relate to this. It's okay to be weak and admit you are powerless over something you love that's so wrong to begin with. Great write and nice displays of emotions.

  • GraveFlower On Saturday, February 24, 2007, GraveFlower (249)By person wrote:

    wow.......i could understand everything your sayin........i did really enjoy this poem...sounds sad but i did...kuedos~*dani*~

  • A former member wrote: I see broken glass everywhere...if people let out enough of their pain, it will recede :)

  • CharlottesWeb On Saturday, February 24, 2007, CharlottesWeb (511)By person wrote:

    Acceptance is a double sided blade, as is seeing life for it's reality. Those who don't are often happier and more productive. But everything changes, and acceptance of our unique situations relies heavily on our moods of the time.

  • The Shattered Heart On Saturday, February 24, 2007, The Shattered Heart (32)By person wrote:

    I do so agree. As with some people though, they don't understand that at times, our moods decide most of everything we say or do.

  • CharlottesWeb On Saturday, February 24, 2007, CharlottesWeb (511)By person wrote:

    Wouldn't it be nice if we could choose our moods like we do our socks! Some people say it's a choice, that it can control our feelings and subsequent moods. Monks do it! Well, the monks spend their entire life learning to do it.

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