Torn in two
Fearing the pain I once felt
It stalks my every step
The scar is still there
The wound still fresh
Thou over a year has passed
I live in utter fear of love
Of feeling something toward anyone
Fearing what might happened
Afraid to lose anyone else to my mindless trap

I want to pull away but… I want to be so close
I can’t have both
I can’t stay safe and lean into you
I want to let go and fall

His grasp long ago lifted from my arm
Thou I still feel his fingers wrapped around my wrist
Holding me back
Holding me next to him as he wandered on with his life
I want to break away but I fear the pain
The next step would be the worst
Leaving it all behind
Taking a step toward you and leaving him behind

My games no longer keep me safe
They cause me more problems then I can handle
I want nothing more then something straight forward
But I walk in fear of love