dead inside

Just the site makes me puke
I hate it
I feel it
I live it
I scream it
Still you don’t get it
My body and soul rots away
as I lie passed out on the floor
but still,
you don’t see
you cant see
you wont see
you refuse to see
this fucked up reality
my immortality
just one little part of me
so i cut
slice it all away
and pour disease infected insects
into each of my bleeding wounds
I'll let them eat me away
And smile as they eat away the pain,
The fuckin pain
that cuts like a burning knife going
slowly but deeply into my gut,
the pain that you refuse to see
Just the site of life every morning,
The smell of honey dew flowers,
The sound of chirping blue birds outside the window
It all makes me fuckin puke
And I hate it all
I feel it all,
Every fuckin sharp pain of my
heart every time it beats,
skips a beat
I live it all
i scream it all
every fuckin thought in my bloody head
still,
you get nothing,
hear nothing,
refuse everything,
everything I fuckin said,
I tried to tell you
inside I feel dead