Sent my regards out
my concern for one
so they could still be here
since then I've thought
sent more regards in a different sense
silently rejected again
so I say my views won't change and just leave it at that
I go back to my own ordeals

Never ready anyway
always with someone else
cannot let go regardless of the mistreatment
showed signs before
but that got me nowhere
put you back where you are now

How do I decide
as now a friend is questioned
about the way I feel towards the other person
even if I truly feel the way I am accused of
what difference would it make?

Just don't even know if I can feel that way properly anymore
not with all the hardships I have dealt with
I really just don't know
I should worry not though
because even if I search myself and find out
"hey, maybe this could work..."
and perhaps I can work towards it
I shall find out it cannot happen

It has happened twice
rather not have it happen again
even if I wanted to I'm sure it will happen again
so I don't know why I even think of it
thinking I had thoughts like this erased from my mind
causing me such complexity in my life

Is there feeling left in me to prosper
to enter yet again into a world
which so far has done me nothing but wrong?