The Demon Within

It happens again
I am bashed on for wanting to work it out
torn down and crushed for what I believe in
decieved by the ones I trust

(You deserve it all)

Why does everyone take their shots
when all I try to do is help

(You ruin my days)

Why must you escape
my attempts to make things right

(Fuck you, I'm going now)

The harsh voices
and the assumptions kill me
yet I want to help
why not listen to me

(You are selfish and useless to me)

An ongoing battle
that I cannot win
all this bullshit day by day
unleashes the demon within

Myself
becoming consumed
something I am not
a different person
not the one all know and love
yet they all still trust me
after they have taken their usual shots

To the heart
from the start
that is where it hurts most
emotions toyed with
feelings of uselessness

So I attmept to reverse the spell...

I love you
(No, you don't...)

I care about you
(Only to help yourself)

I need you
(You would do fine without me)

I do not feel good doing the same wrong back
but it sometimes comes out
but what is one to do
when there is no way to sastify another

Mean or nice
bad or good
I am stabbed at
and noone gives a shit

The heart takes a beating
then starts to bleed
when there is nothing left
the demon within is released

But of course I am stupid
because eventually I will feel loved again
I will feel cared for again
just to fall into the same realm of rejection

It is not my fault this time
(Yes it is)

But I do would do nothing to do you wrong
(You just did...)

Why must people hate
I only try to help
but instead I must suffer
and enter a living hell