Deceive Me

My lust for pain rages
it burns deep withing my soul
or at least this is what I seem to believe
because I keep coming back
to the same old game
mislead
mistreated
poor unguided soul
no faith to live by
no beliefs to believe in
everything known before
is wiped from my mind
as the truth comes out
from the surrounding arround me
suffering
choking
gasping for breath
just wanting some time to breathe
would it be ok?
perhaps so?
perhaps not...
it appears I have no choice
so just go ahead for it
use and abuse me
deceive me