Every time I think I have what I desire
one or the other turns away
not because of hate
but because they have to
and I stay wondering
what if it would not have happened
what are the possibilites
but more so now than in the past
I count on this
because I even supported it
I want happiness for those I care for
I have to start learning to maintain now
so I do not break down in tears later

Why does this always happen to me?
maybe for the better?
I put my faith so much into it this time
so much different than the rest
and I will never have the chance to find out

In a matter of days
things are subject to change

If something remains
the distance will not be kept

As long as I can repeat these lines
as they really are true when it comes to this
I guess I'll be ok
deep down inside though I still see hurt

Maybe I won't be ok...
as hard as it is
there is only one thing I can do
to await that difficult moment
and to bid my final goodbye