Staring upon a familiar object
Dark room
Nervousness
Yet so hurt
Blaming thyself
Though the fault is not mine
Same shit
Different day
as I find myself staring upon a blade again
is it because of someone
no
because I hate myself
not exactly
it has deeper meaning
as I could care less what happens to me
heart stomped on
tattered and torn
I let it be done to me
I did it to myself as well
How could I be so stupid
Putting myself in a path just to fall again
Fuck you, lord Jesus Christ
If you existed you would help my desperate heartbroken soul
Fucking insane I tell you
Fuck the world and it’s lies
Fuck the people who call themselves friends
Fuck the family who was never there
Fuck everyone
Because nobody is ever there at the time of need
Farewell to everyone
Find someone else to pester
At least I have one thing to honor
I shall fall by my own hand
And not by the likes of you
Fuck you all
With this world…

I’m done