reel

By girlafraid

this place is a mess
a neverending consumption of all that i ever wanted
i think i made it this way
i must have done something

there are times
when i can't see myself anywhere else
there are times
when i think he can

it is not for lack of whys and ifs
i have so many
it's finding the right one
i sift through
there's always a piece that gets misfiled
i must have missed it

i've been here all along
i have nothing but the best intentions
but i can't supress the stomach lurch
everytime i wonder
why

it's been so long since anyone anything
but then again,
it always just made me uncomfortable
anyway

i never wanted anyone to see the bad
doubt feeds the irrational
exposes the core
please turn away

the elaborate masks hide so little lately

Unauthorized Copying Is Prohibited. Ask the author first.

Published on Tuesday, August 23, 2005. Filed under: "Depressed" and "Poetry"

Comments on "reel"

A former member wrote: this is beautiful... even those words that i might use here won't even express ... of what i really mean
On Thursday, September 8, 2005, flying_fox (571) wrote:

This piece makes me want to throw my arms around you and cry... and drink many vodkas or something. I just adore you and your work. xxx
On Thursday, September 8, 2005, girlafraid (479) wrote:

i'd be happy to meet you for vodkas sometime, fox...thanks for the lovely comment :)
On Friday, September 2, 2005, Aethelwyne (51) wrote:

Reading this gave me a feeling i cannot describe at the moment. This is awesome.
On Wednesday, August 24, 2005, glasshouse (530) wrote:

The last 5 lines were really what hit me. You built a world of words and the last 5 lines made it mine. Made it home. This was exquisitely expressed. Bravo. -Glass
A former member wrote: Hmm. I concur. Not sure what else to say, you nailed it. This was eerily close to what I was already thinking about. Very cool write. ~Ship!
On Tuesday, August 23, 2005, NikesRain (1240) wrote:

ah raina i've missed you...you have such a way of putting truth up to the light with such a flawless hand...the ending section was outstanding
On Tuesday, August 23, 2005, elisa (1595) wrote:

this reminds me of my favorite line of any song...... '......i sentence you to be exposed before your peers.....'.....very nice.
On Wednesday, August 24, 2005, capt_funguy (777) wrote:

she has no peers.