reel

By girlafraid

this place is a mess
a neverending consumption of all that i ever wanted
i think i made it this way
i must have done something

there are times
when i can't see myself anywhere else
there are times
when i think he can

it is not for lack of whys and ifs
i have so many
it's finding the right one
i sift through
there's always a piece that gets misfiled
i must have missed it

i've been here all along
i have nothing but the best intentions
but i can't supress the stomach lurch
everytime i wonder
why

it's been so long since anyone anything
but then again,
it always just made me uncomfortable
anyway

i never wanted anyone to see the bad
doubt feeds the irrational
exposes the core
please turn away

the elaborate masks hide so little lately

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Copyright 2005 girlafraid
Published on Tuesday, August 23, 2005.     Filed under: "Depressed" and "Poetry"
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  • A former member wrote: this is beautiful... even those words that i might use here won't even express ... of what i really mean

  • flying_fox On Thursday, September 8, 2005, flying_fox (573)By person wrote:

    This piece makes me want to throw my arms around you and cry... and drink many vodkas or something. I just adore you and your work. xxx

  • girlafraid On Thursday, September 8, 2005, girlafraid (480)By person wrote:

    i'd be happy to meet you for vodkas sometime, fox...thanks for the lovely comment :)

  • Aethelwyne On Friday, September 2, 2005, Aethelwyne (51)By person wrote:

    Reading this gave me a feeling i cannot describe at the moment. This is awesome.

  • glasshouse On Wednesday, August 24, 2005, glasshouse (548)By person wrote:

    The last 5 lines were really what hit me. You built a world of words and the last 5 lines made it mine. Made it home. This was exquisitely expressed. Bravo. -Glass

  • A former member wrote: Hmm. I concur. Not sure what else to say, you nailed it. This was eerily close to what I was already thinking about. Very cool write. ~Ship!

  • NikesRain On Tuesday, August 23, 2005, NikesRain (1298)By person wrote:

    ah raina i've missed you...you have such a way of putting truth up to the light with such a flawless hand...the ending section was outstanding

  • elisa On Tuesday, August 23, 2005, elisa (1616)By person wrote:

    this reminds me of my favorite line of any song...... '......i sentence you to be exposed before your peers.....'.....very nice.

  • capt_funguy On Wednesday, August 24, 2005, capt_funguy (778)By person wrote:

    she has no peers.

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