Constantly deprived of sleep
because I cannot be loved
even if you care so much
it falls apart
love is simply a double-edged sword
that rips upon my heart constantly
everytime I take the plunge
I am to become hurt
no questions
no doubt on my mind about this
my eyes hurt from the tears
and from the deprivation of sleep
I close them and try to drift off
and hope I do not fall alseep
because if I do the pain gets worse
haunted by my own nightmares
because in the end
nobody gives a fuck
so just stop loving me
because it hurts for me to love
you do not know how
and I no longer want to know how

This is what I tell myself
but I keep pursing in things I know will hurt me
I dig upon my own grave
restless I shall be
because of the constant heartbreak
all the way up until the day I die
I expect so much
yet get so little
I give them my heart
and they take my soul
eating away at the heart that is left
the damaged one that keeps on pumping
hoping someone is out there
I might as well just throwdown on myself like I used to
cause myself the pain
except take it to the next level
the second I put myself to rest
the bleeding heart theory exists no more
I can rest in peace