I Thought The Tears Were Over...

You make me feel exceptionally special
just to throwdown and do your own thing
and not care about what my feelings will be
I wanted to pursue something
but now I cannot
unbelieveable I find this to be
I honestly gave you credit this time
I even did as you wished
I put my guard down
I made exceptions
and for what?
slowly reaching the edge
I break down inside
I seem to take it well
but really it is nothing but horrible
not even just bad
this is beyond what I am used to
even though it is simply the same crap
a replay of the usual
and it falls from the edge
the tears come down yet again
and I will never know what to do about it
my hope
destroyed
and so much more
too much emotional distortion to think straight
it has been accomplished yet again
want to call it quits time and time again but never do
now you insist on your rebellious bullshit
forget me
think about yourself
do yourself the favor
you are garunteed to suffer eventually
and I still do as well

Why must it be this way
I will never know
what is truth
and what is a lie
I probably should not even care anymore
lost and left with nothing
farewell yet again