My mind
my body
have gotten the best of me
driven me down to this enternal hell
a self struggle
and a battle to fight off the sickness
the plague within my viens
to rid myself of the discouragement I now have
ashamed to even show my face at times
because I have become engulfed
in this void I am unfamiliar with
dragged down into a zone of depression
a zone of suffering
where daily questions wonder
while I am forced to lay back
and cannot change a damn thing
waiting for it all to end
or simply the company of another
dear god help me
I know not what to do
nor do I really want to turn to anyone either
I let myself become weak
and that will be my downfall
and I will keep on falling
until I find an answer
become well enough to feel good about myself again
and suffer no more from the sudden sickness
or until someone saves me from this hell
but that would require a special something
that I am still convinced I can never have
drowning deep as my activity is limited
I pray for myself to be better soon
but a sense of hope is nowhere in my prescence
I await to be awakened
because I choose to sleep this all away