Take My Life

They start out as small cuts
But the desire to go deeper grows stronger
The need to cut harder becomes more intense
My pain, my anger, my hurt
Is all being taken out on my own flesh
The sight of my blood holds some strange comfort
The more blood that flows, the more I cut
Like an addiction I simply can't stop
My emotions contol my every move
My hate for you pushes me
I imagine that this is not my blood
It's yours that I see on my hands
I know this needs to stop
I just don't have the will
I only desire blood more eah time
I want to go all the way
Just take away all the pain
Let me die
I can't take this life any more
Just take it from me please
Let me shove the knife in
Then no more pain
It would all be over
No more days for you to ruin
No more pain for you to cause
No more moments I wish I were dead
It sounds so perfect
But somehow I still can't bring myself to do it
I just don't have the strength
I want to let it all go but I can't
Can't some one take my life for me
I don't want it, I don't need it
Don't call me ungrateful
Life isn't some precious gift
To me it's a curse
I never asked to be alive
I would have been fine if I never exsisted
But it's too late ofr that
Besides, it was never my choice to begin with
I just want my life to end tonight