God Save My Soul

I tried it your way once again
you got mad at me once again
and it wasn not even my fault
it was the fault of someone else
and you took it out on me
I stayed behind after everyone left
to find out a few things
leave on a happy note
even knowing I would most likely come out without you
without you in my arms
without you as my partner

I told you I honestly considered it again
at one point so did you
I told you I honestly wanted to try again
but never bothered for your sake
as you do not seem to want it
to my big suprize you lied to me again
hid from me
and had a friend do it as well
but that is much expected
as it has happened before

You found yet somebody else
once again so quick you are to find another
third times a charm maybe
but no
you got hurt again
yet not before feelings were there
and a kiss between you two was shared
my only words to you...
"I'm sorry..."

Wanted to cry in the bathroom
but simply just ran out of tears
I wanted out
I wanted to leave
no more hurt
you threatened me to do things your way
or you would never talk to me again
that was the way it was previously
so what difference really would it make
through much hurt you would get your way again
yet you seemed to be coming back to yourself
the one I fell for so long ago
in more ways than one
in such a short time
then it happens

Your expected company shows up
and another moment is killed
the little time we had after your threat
and you talking to your much wanted company
we got nothing
and I became more hurt than I thought I could be
the knife pierced the skin
found it's way through the bones
and has gone straight into the heart
but it does not stop there

As pins and needles add up even more part
the end of heartache ceases to exist
even after all this madness
typical thing to happen but so much worse this time around
you usally say I love you anyway
no words were exchanged
just a hug that barely lasted

With not much being said and suffering for sure
I still seem to love you
deep inside of my heart somewhere
but found myself speechless when it came to depart you
I could not say it back to you
because I have truly had enough