Sometimes I Cry

sometimes i wonder
what it would be like
to taste
without the tears.

sometimes i cry
because i don't want to be this
anymore.

i don't want to take this anymore.
i can't take anymore.

sometimes i cry.

sometimes my eyes plead for you to understand.
sometimes i'm glad you don't.
i wouldn't wish this on anyone.

and all i can ask is what did i do?
what's my fucking crime
and why am i the one held by this?

sometimes i shake
and it's cold, hard to breathe.
sometimes i'm broken right down to the bones.

just the bones.
i want to be just the fucking bones.

sometimes i leave myself to rot
and wait for the pain.

do you like to hurt?
watch me fall.

sometimes i forget
who i am
where i am
what was i saying?
sometimes i forget

and sometimes
i wish
i could.

i can't.

take me as i am.

i can't take me as i am.

take me?

i hate every last cell
of this fucking mess.

sometimes i cry
because you don't hear me screaming.

make this fucking stop.
make me fucking stop, i'm done.

with this.

leave me to rot.

sometimes i cry.