Pain

At one point i was happy.
now its like you hurt me just to make yourself
feel good.
I'm tired of the abuse,
I want out of this cage.
stop the pain.
Im not an animal or fucking rag doll.
but i could change i would,
if i could go back i would've never done this.
Im forced to face memories of a terrible past.
You've manipulated my life.
Im under your control just as you planed
all along.
I can't believe it took me so long to realize.
Now its too late...i've pushed everyone away.
You trained me to need you to live.
its too late to get out.
I have nowhere to run and hide..
just look out my window and watch everyone
walk away..as i plead
in pain.