reading lights casting shadows
silohuette bombarding walls
his contour painting the room
in black over forest green
the fan overhead blows
a voice sighs from the speakers
a song
something about
“love will find a way”

cut outs & picture from magazines
pinned to the shadowed walls
boxers down at his ankles
knees burning on the rug
body hunched over
in a prayer position

cool breeze blowing on his hair
caressing his throbbing manhood
arm vibrating back & forth
like a piston
imagining the girls that came before
& dreaming of the girls
who will come after
eyes closed
breathing deep
heart pounding
2:35 a.m.
the rest of the household asleep
he sighs
& then
RELEASE!!

the visions fade
breathing slows
heart resumes
its normal rhythm
looking down at the toilet tissue
in front of him
on the floor

he is just a boy
in a dark
shadow-filled room
in the suburbs
in the middle of the country
in this world
alone & tossing off