i sat in a penguin with a goat: a love story (for kelly)

We met in a time where I was very confused
You fell for me very quick and harder than you will ever admit
I only saw you, in the beginning at least
As something to play with and forget about later
We did many things that we shouldn’t have
Because of your age and my girlfriend at the time
But we did them anyway
Remember the pool parking lot with the rain pouring down?
Yeah white socks, I get it, ha ha
What about the early morning around 2 a.m. it was chilly
I came and got you, the church parking lot?
Sometimes I would see you and hate myself
And I know often you would see me and hate yourself
For not allowing yourself to get what you want
But give me what I wanted
I enjoyed going to the Nutcracker with you
And I’m sorry I threw that sandwich out the window
I have anger inside me sometimes
I wish you would let me open doors for you more
And I wish you would unlock the door of my truck from the inside
You gave me a letter once that I read at Taco Bell
Right before I went to see Ben Folds
Months later we sat at the same Taco Bell in the same seat
And I told you about reading your letter there
In your letter you said that listening to “Change” by Good Charlotte
Would reveal some of your thoughts and feelings
I wrote back and quoted lyrics from “Straw Dog” by Something Corporate
I said that you often represented the darkness
Darkness that drove me to do detrimental things
That back when we messed around what we did would drive me from the light
Who knew come one year later that everything cherished by me then
Would be the things that hurt me now
And that you would now be the only light in my life
The time at Eric’s house we lied on the couch looking into each other’s eyes
I asked you “Why do you put up with me?”
And you stroked my head and told me
“Because of moments like this.”
When it comes to the mentality of Society
What we have is looked down upon because of your age
It is sad to think that the ones who don’t like the idea of you and me
Are the ones who destroy you as a person
I often feel like I am the only one who sees the good in you
On the phone one time we both listened to a song called “Everything”
Mine was by Dreamer
Yours was by Lifehouse
Both of us can relate the song to the other
The road we have traveled this past year has been very bumpy on both sides
We can both be in moods where we are hurtful to the other
Yet we still smile whenever our eyes connect
I joke with you about you being in love with me
I try to get you to say it but you won’t
You don’t need to
I know you do
And I feel the same way
In our future I can predict us saving each other