you believed me, you took me back!
I couldn't believe it.
I listened as I scrapped the memories up.
Remeber this, remeber that?
I felt so good knowing maybe I actually had someone in my life again.
But then it happened and I felt it hit, You really wanted this, what a fucking twist.
Talking about kids, and marriage and sex. I made you happy for a sec.
Somehow I needed you, I knew youd be there, so I took advantage of you cause I knew you cared.
Home coming was scary. you walked three miles in the rain, then It happened, i saw you and the pain. Your eyes full of wisdom and questions so full. You tried to kiss me but I turned. Its been a while you said, with a smile on your face, not knowing that I had made the mistake.
I didnt want you, or anything to do with you. I needed your voice. It was a vulnerable act, somehow I didnt care.
I left two weeks later not a word or call, Sometimes I still wonder about us, and all.
Now karma has caught me cause I need you as a friend, I need to apologize and try to defend.
No words can express the pain I still feel, My guilt has taken over and the years pass on, Somehow I will find you and give our relationship the burial it deserves. And tell you to your face that I am sorry.

To Damian, 1999.