So now that my resolve is spent
I'm staring again into the endless sea
Weeping again at the sight of dawn
As this thousand-yard stare is killing me
Shadows beckon me to hide
Before the sunrise comes and burns
And chars away what feelings are left inside
Mem'ries of what was that I forever yearn
I'm still trying to make sense of it all

So now that I'm wasting my life
Throwing away futures on tomorrows gone too soon
Belief in forever is starting to fade
Betrayed by myself and sentenced to this empty room
Hearing the clock tick and tick away
As the voices in my head raise to a din
Spinning into another dreary day
Stopping while I'm holding everything in
Before I open my mouth and scream and scream again

So now that I am broken on this floor
Without enough strength to raise my head
Not even enough to give you a ghost of a smile
Naked and bleeding and left for dead
Time to put this mess of excuses that I've become
Away and away for another day
Time to drag myself to bed, to mull over what I've done
Mantras to keep the nightmares at bay
And all the things I never let myself say.