A life worth while should not be to much to ask for
when you  pick your self out of the gutter
maybe more times than you care to remember
when you look endlessly for those arms that should be around you
and one day they are gone and it's too late 

gratitude is what you find when you can finally look in the mirror and face the facts
dust yourself off  and move on and take that long journey with your head held high

but there are no prizes
no finish lines
no gold star
 
You surprisingly 
unwillingly
fall in love again
hard  and fast and crazy
suddenly

you find what had to be LUST 
was really the love you've been waiting for all this time
and once your heart starts to beat again
you breathe
Deep

a sigh
not even you can sabotage this.


sadly, you think, when life throws you another curveball and then the big one what will become of us
but nothing matters
you find your self in those loving arms you always knew you'd have
Happy tears, sad tears, 


tears 
tears
pain



over and over hand in hand
sleeping in a hospital bed with a ring on your left hand
your best friend to your right 
agony in your hearts 


And and when all is said and done 

nothing and no one 

no illness can break them 
a dream come true 
a whole new perspective 
a whole new level of laughter , 






infinite romance, attachment , infatuation
continuous intrigue.

bittersweet ending
now  maybe
The happy beginning ...