Lost Faith

Whores who can have babies
only to desert them in their sleep,
leave woman who wants a child but can't,
alone, in silence as they weep.
A God who saves lives yet takes them away,
so tell me why in my despair my prayers seem delayed?
Release me from this pain I feel and make me whole once more,
un answered prayers make my think I am only being ignored.
I've begged and pleaded in so many prayers,
and here I am suffering in despair.
I want nothing more than to hold my child,
yet time after time I'm left here with nothing, feeling exiled.
How am I to have some faith when nothing good ever comes?
is it a test for handling stress, 'cause I can't be sure of the out come.
I need a child to hold so I can heal from all the loss, 
or will you continue to show me in your way,
that you and only you are the boss?