Nothing/ Everything

No drugs to numb my ever taunting memories,
   they haunt my dreams,
                         tease me endlessly,
                                       torment me beyond disease.
I can't shut them up,
                     can't block them out,
                                        it's my sanity I begin to doubt.
Do you see my reasoning yet....
                             my need for the drugs?
      You just brush it away,
                          sweep it under the rug,
 like a bathtub full of water,
                            I'm draining away without the plug.
slaughtered silence swallowed all hope of decency I had attempted to attain,
                              I am just a mark on your floor,
                       a forgotten about blood stain.
Walked over,
                  trampled on,
                                 left to be washed away by the rain.