Pain the fickle lover

I know I don't know everything
but I know life's not a game
I've felt my patience wear to thin
followed by the sting of shame
ego's also had me under thumb
it's been a ball and chain
regret some things I've said and done
don't want to spread my pain

Easy to be so wrong - and that's alright
I've not lived long - it's part of life
you try to learn - so you just might
avoid the burn - come the next time

When pain the fickle lover
beckons you to bed once more
to lay down in another
mess you can't ignore
alluring you with poison words
with the familiar you feel sure
but you know it's really just absurd
to let her screw you like the whore

Easy to be so wrong - but it's not alright
when you've heard this song - ten thousand times
and I can change - adjust my sight
there's better ways - just search inside

I'm done with fighting
but I ain't laying down to die
it can seem inviting
to flirt with thoughts of suicide
but I'll keep striving
respect myself deep down inside
and be ever trying
to find the beauty in this life