thousand shots

Time took a backseat to my life 

Freezing hell over pushing me away 

Then the lights went out and the world paused 


Hitting the speed bumps with the breaks on 

Causing drama everywhere I go 

Lacking from the air that is cutting me off at the head 

Suffocation me killing me slowly watching the life faded from my eyes 

The life I never had thanks to you 

Viewing the world at the bottom of the bottle 

Running in circles chasing my pointless dreams 

It feels like I’m nailed to the floor and my mouth sewn shut 

Slamming myself around in my cage wanting to break free 

Forcing this smile isn’t worth it anymore 

Force feeding you this happiness isn’t working any more 

Pretending that I could feel 

Lieing to your face saying I Love You 

Wishing I could live a normal life 

Walk among you breathing living 

All my demons are going to get me 

Hoping to drink myself dead 

Knowing that all that lies a head is the end of a gun and a morgue 

All the lights go out and the world pauses