As I gaze across the river
the churning water calls to me
I can not go I know
Responsibility holds onto me
But even that is beginning to fray
Let this end, is this what life is
I look out over the water and see
Others living a life happy and carefree
Children full of love and peace
Parents beam of pride and patience
Prosperity abound for even the ones
who's morals are null, Luck is with them
The true foundations of a life,
seems to have fallen in my own
I live, only to see my endeavors fail
I love, only to be denied a similar emotion
I trust, only to be burned
I give, only to be taken never returned
I dream, only to see nightmares
I push forward, only to fall back
I stand alone, for no other is there for me
I watch family dissolve before me
The gulfs to wide to mend
So I wither, as I continue to try
I keep filling a cup that is shattered
Keep looking for a new one, as my substance evaporates
I am tired, so I watch the river flow
Wishing for the peace below,
though knowing I can not go.
How much more do I have to endure
How much longer will the chains hold onto me
Before it is my turn, either to fall forward and find peace
or to taste and savor what they say life holds, happiness.




written and copyrighted by ADR, regnhild aka as other aliases.
on 5.18.11