I still remember the sound it made on that cold dark night , we were alone with him and it gave us quite a fright. 
"Go in the other room" he said he needed to talk to him alone , i didn't want to i didn't want to go so i went in the other room to hear the things i didn't want to know.
As i walked away from the words i heard that hurt my heart , i wiped the tears from my face and went to sit on the steps.
"No dad No" was the words i heard from my brother , i ran as fast as i could to the other room to see what was wrong. And at that moment i new i just couldn't be strong.
Everything was in slow motion as i seen the gun go up , there was no time by then to try and help.
I ran to stand over him as my brother walked out the house , Click Click Click  the gun was empty as my brother tryed. There was nothing i could do there was nothing i could say as my father left this world in the worse betray.
He left his wife his 8 kids to go on in this world.
i will see you in heaven one day until , we love you and miss you always have and always will.