It's all a success
On my way in my new car
A career where I solve everyone's problems

Promotions, raises, and everyone sees the answers in me

And they sit amazed at how much I accomplish

And how I can hold it together in the face of anything

     Alone, on the floor, curled up in a ball

     Sobbing beyond control, unable to move

     And believe me this isn't pretty

     Thick dark white elastic drool

     pours out of the mouth

     that I can barely breathe out of

My sharp shirt and tie

My beautiful wife

Out of my league, but hey

I'm not complaining

I can juggle so much

and manage so much

and handle anything

     Hatred overwhelms

     shame freezes

     a sound from the TV downstairs shakes me to vague awareness

     alone on the floor

     with my face and clothes covered

     in tears, drool, and sweat

My career, my peace of mind

I take care of so many

I say everything I need to

I do everything I'm asked to

And where others falter

I excel

Where others give up

I only get stronger
I've overcome so much
and I never give up

     And they won't leave me alone

     as I'm exhausted beyond despair

     No sleep, no food, and it's starting to show

     I hear the messages they say

     of how my best is not enough

     of the countless people I let down everyday

     and alone, and alone, and alone

     I hate nothing, nothing, nothing

     more than I hate

     myself

     ANd I'll feed myself anything that will take me away from this

     I want to break everything

     It's too late

     I'm tired beyond repair

     Just let me sleep

     Just let me sleep.