Still Gone

Sunrise to sunset
all I wish for is you.
What I wouldn't give
just for one last day wth you.

Tired and empty
none of my days mean anything
without you to laugh with.
Missing you is my new normal.

Laugh instead of cry,
smile through the pain,
pretend things are normal
when my whole life is wrong.

Sitting with a pen in hand
I try to think of the good things.
All I can think is I need you,
I want you back here with me.

Every morning I look outside
and see Spring blossoming.
The start of new life, but you're gone.
In my head it doesn't make sense.

Life doesn't mean anything,
because you aren't here to share it with.
Nothing's the same anymore,
you've left me alone.

Nothing I say or do
is good enough for anyone.
All alone,
I'm left to face my pain.

The tears I cry,
words I put to paper,
nothing can compare
to the devastation inside.

There's nothing I could say
to explain the empty,
hollow feeling that just won't end.
The pain is the only thing I feel.

Trying to think on the bright side
and remember the good times
is hard when there aren't many
and when I think of all the things you'll miss.

You'll never walk me down the aisle,
dance the father/daughter dance with me.
Never get to see and hold your first grandbaby,
or grow old with mom by your side.

Even though you're watching,
protecting, and loving me from heaven,
even though you're now my guardian angel
you're still gone.

Every day the sun rises,
and every night the sun sets.
Every day I still live my life
because that's the way you'd want it.