Six Feet Down

 Hauntingly  reminded by thoughts of you
Scaling my wall, memories are so few
Even in death I am still trying to please you
Forgive me please of all of my sins
They keep invading me...... crawling under my skin
The moments of peace are shattered by fear
Lurking around every corner.....is that you I hear?
Gripping me tight and raising me up from the floor
At that moment I knew I had opened a door
Which led down a path of utter repulsion
Is it still you that I seek,maybe for redemption?
Unable to comprehend all the thoughts inside my head
I reach for you forgetting but a moment  that you're dead
I feel as though you've let me go
As I cling to things from long ago
Cannot break my nasty habits
My cravings for you are deeper than imagined
I curse the day you took my hand
And led me too your darkened land
And so for now........I pretend
That you and me will never end
Without a thought....... without a sound
I sit atop your fresh soiled mound
Believing you can still control me even six feet down