One More Swig, Just One More

Just another swig and I'll be okay
It's just another nightmare, another day
It's nice to hear the voices telling me
That another drink will make me see
The truths behind your once-lies
All my life it's been, "Go off and die"
Or even "Hope you're happy now"
When I'd make a mistake somehow
The drinking began when I was nine
When I was handed some from a line
Of beverages, all laced and sweet
To make me think them a pleasant treat
To this day, I still think poorly of
The family that let their "love"
Seep into the alcohol I now consume
As I drink, All I think about is you

As your sick body falls apart
And a smile spreads across my heart
To think of you in so much pain
Age takes its morbid toll again
Your hands that touched my sleeping form
Are now achey and ever so worn
The mouth that licked my neck
Is condemned to arthritic death
The feet that carried me to your room
Are now sick, pained, and doomed
I grin in grim satisfaction at your strife
I guess karma happens in everyone's life

Another swig is all I am able to take before
I stand to make my arm and hand pour
Out the sweet liquor, the beautiful poison
That holds me captive even as I pour it
Out into the tub because the sink is covered
In my vomit as I try to get rid of my lover
My hand, it shakes to know what I am doing
Then I hear your voice, and you sing
In my ear, "You stupid child, you will never win"
As I struggle hard with my deepest sins
I cringe as I feel the scars burn again
The ones I bear for making a bargain
With you to keep me alive and I'd do
Anything that you asked me to
As long as I was your servant girl, sex slave
Everything was alright, it was all okay

No more swigs are left and I'm unsure of
Why I haven't even escaped the memory of
You.