Tired of being tired

can't do this shit anymore,
it's the feeling of constant pressure
from the most hypocritical fucks ever.

i can't do this anymore
i am drowing,
life is not choices that you make but chances and situations that leave us all wondering what the fuck happend,

i can't say that in the end, i made all the right choices, i can't say that i've done my best,
i just know
that i am tired
tired of always having to watch my back,
tired of knowing that i'll never have someone watching over me, not really,

As I watch my life go by,
i am the only spectator of this one man show,

no one really gives a fuck, about how my day was
or where i'll go tomorrow, we are all our own island and were all too fucked up to realize that someone else might care,
i wanted to
i wanted to care .
and obviously i do,
but the favor that i assured myself would be returned, came wraped in ribbons and contained nothing but a mirror,

and now

i am staring right back into myself
with no one, and once again i am alone

boo fucking hoo

fuck you all ... i will turn my head and do what i have to do, because i am all alone in this world. and i'll never have anyone that genuinely gives a shit about me, you probably won't either.. genuine hahaha fuck you all