A love full of hate

Why couldn't you just simply LOVE ME BACK?

Instead, you turned yourself into an ugly ball of hate,
rolling fast out my sight, marking the streets
with your everlasting absence.

I am fighting this absence by turning into a pseudonym
hiding on black pages,searching for your shadow.

I hate you for making me walk away in silence
and choose life.

And I hate myself for still dreaming of you,
even when I am held by someone else's pure love.

But most of all, I hate both of us
for not being strong enough to change
our destiny.

xx