Half awake, half aware, half there
Dying to sleep, dying to wake , dying to die
Watching you through unseeing eyes
Remembering, remembered, not forgot
Remembering the past
Besieged by life’s lies.

Shaking, unmoving, almost a corpse
Wanting more, wanting more, always more
A liquid, a solid, a human, a god
A nothing, a failure, an animal, a dog
Dying to remember
What all this is for

Dreaming to wake, aspiring to go
Somewhere called home
Images of you an elf a goblin or just a gnome
Word stuck trying to flow
If only they saw , if only they knew
The things that only you and me can know

So where are you now son?
A needle on your arm? A crown on your head?
Are you lying in someone else’s bed?
I know you saved me
And killed me in one go
Never ever did I stoop so low.

I pray for you , but sometimes the worst
Resentment holds me
Quenches that thirst
But when I heard you were dead that day
The world caved in
Its confusing this aching
My friend my God, my love
Where are you now?