Have You Ever Felt?

Have you ever felt...
A pressure all around you that stopped you from moving?
That no matter how hard you tried to win you'd always end up losing?
That you were a fallen rose pedal- beautiful but rotting away?
The immense weight on your heart burdening you night and day?
The fear of falling to your death only to find yourself safe in bed?
The horrible regret sink in over what you wish you hadn't said?
Pushed to the point where you completely lost control?
Terrified of facing the truth when all your lies take their toll?
So in love with a person that your heart won't let you forget?
Terrified and confused, waking up in a cold sweat?
That you hurt someone to the point that sorry just wouldn't do?
That maybe it wasn't everyone else, maybe the problem was you?
That you would always fail and there was no point in trying?
That everyone was content and you were always crying?
That everyone was miserable and you were to blame?
Desperate for change in a world that stays the same?
So right then have someone prove you wrong?
So weak inside then pretending to be strong?
Suicidal? Truly believing that death would end you pain.
The buildup of tears in your eyes ready to pour like rain?
The sensations that awaken you from your life as a wooden doll?
I often wonder with the way you treat me... do you feel at all?