Love kills more than just your heart

Life spirals away from me
I dance in uncontroled frenzy
I feel myself losing my grip
I no longer care

I felt like when I lost you
My life was over, I was nothing
I let myself be abused and beaten
I abused my broken body willingly

I still lie in the shadows
Unwilling to leave
Unwilling to fight for the life I no longer want
The life you and I had.

I cant seem to find a life for myself.
I know who I am and yet I aspire to nothing
I live a life of walking death
No breath leaves my lifeless lips when I speak

I tried to move on
But how far can I move with you hiding round every corner
Doing for other girls what you never did for me,
Who you swore you loved more than life.

I wont let you hurt me anymore
I wont let you gorgese face haunt my dreams.
I wont allow that smile to make me melt.
I wont remember that soft caress as u whispered " I will love you forever"

I was dragged out of my pit of dispear
By another, who makes me really smile
For the first time since you i feel likelife might work
With him by my side I can be strong.

I'll take the chance.
Open my heart to him as I did to you,
And hope that unlike you
He wont hurt me

No matter what happens,
If I love again or not
You hold a special part of me
Noone may take it from you.

As I hold in you, I hope
I'll always love you but I wont waste my time with you
You cause me too much pain
We cant continue as we are.

I cant be your friend, and you cant be mine
Till we stop trying to hurt each other and ourselves
I'll let him take me, and hope it works better than with you
To my first love, I love you and good bye

May life hold the answers that I never had
And find happiness I never allowed
Learn to love again
And one day, we shall meet again and not know each other
And we can start again.